A story

So I have decided to tell a bit about what lead to some of the “behind the music” of By the Throat, Mikey’s solos stuff, Carbon Carousel, and writings. So a little over 10 years ago I dated a guy who turned out to be my stalker. I had been divorced for a few years and started dating this guy who I was introduced to by friends. We dated and he seemed very nice, supportive, and helpful. At that time I had Mikey, Maxx and any other teen who needed a home living with me. After about a year and half of dating I lost my job and he and I started talking about combining our bills. So he moved into the house. Things started out fine, he was very kind to the kids, supportive if I went with them to some show or battle, even if I wanted to go out on tours. We lived together almost a year and things changed. I had gone back to work and as I have said my brother was ill and needed a transplant which when Mikey turned 18 we (family) knew we would do. So as I went through all the testing, making all the plans to be off work, and what my whole family would do. Well this guy became very possessive and with all I had going on was not able to see my way to giving him more of my time and energy. So I asked him to move out and he freaked. So while the transplant when on he was not living here but was still around. I had strong feelings some would say love for him and wanted to work it out. So Mikey and Maxx were doing there thing, the transplant went well, and not having this guy around as much made me see how bad he was. So I told him we are done, I don’t like you and please stay away. Well that didn’t work he did many dumb things and finally asked to leave me alone. So he then went crazy. Went to my house and started threatening me. I left and was afraid to go back home. So I called Mikey asked him to come get me and on our way back to the house got a call saying he was there and breaking the fence. We called the cops and they meet us by the house went to talk with him and let him go. Told us to go get a order of protection this guy is crazy. So that night he called I didn’t answer but the messages were very detailed on how he was going to make me pay by hurting Mikey. So we filed that’s a whole another story. So Mikey and Maxx were to go on tour and I was so afraid I asked them not to go. It was a really big deal I wrote out this whole thing to say to all of the RhymeSayers early guys about how they had to be extra careful and Mikey could not be alone since he wants to do this. I cried as I had to ask them to take special care on the road, and watch Mikey at all times. Mikey hated that I did that. We had a few conversations in the year or so before he passed about it. I don’t think we hashed it all out but we knew why and how we felt about it. This of course is a very vague and generic account of the couple of years of fear and hell but maybe it will shed a small bit of where some of the music comes from. Love Kathy